the drone of biz-e-ness

This morning I jogged past a high school and caught someone talking over the PA system for what seemed like a ridiculously long time. It was the sort of teacher-on-Charlie-Brown, roller coaster attendant, inattentive pilot mumble-drone that makes you giggle and question whether the person talking is actually serious. There's no way anyone can understand that shit! I can't even begin to type the gibberish I heard. 

The sensation I had listening to that announcement is very similar to the sensation I had recounting my week, a sort of what-the-hell-was-that-feeling. 

Beginning Sunday, I filmed two days on two separate projects, had 2 musical improv rehearsals and one live performance, recorded four demos of a cover for a commercial music project, went to two live music shows, edited two short videos, and helped run house at one live theatre/clown show. Its the sort of fantasy week full of creative/fun projects that, if I hadn't also put in 32 hours working at the studio, might have sated my artistic hunger, but instead left me completely pooped come Thursday night. I pathetically whimpered over the phone to my equally-busy boyfriend, I'm so confused. I'm so tired!

Why am I sharing this, you may ask? Well, first of all it is my blog and I'm allowed to talk to myself in a public forum if I want to. Also, as a friend on Facebook articulated this week, we often only project our shiny, happy, most-glowing selves online. When we're far away from family and friends and people who care about us, and too busy to catch up on the phone or in a letter, those VIPs buy into the broadcast wholeheartedly. While I am by no means a proponent of depressing, passive-agressive status updates, I think its important to share a variety of emotional colors, and a blog is an appropriate place to do so. So this is that. Somewhat.

This is also a promise to myself that I will quit droning on, throwing my energies in all sorts of directions all at once. It is a somewhat necessary component of this stage in my career, but if I keep at it to this degree I will start to become just as enthusiastic and clear-intentioned as that person on the loudspeaker this morning. And no one can listen to that shit without giggling.

I'm cutting some fat, simplifying what I can, and taking the weekend to relax with one of my very favorite VIPs, my sister Michelle. Still keeping my fingers crossed on those demos, but dammit, it's time to show gratitude and rest up for next week! I wish you the same good-sort-of-giggle fun this weekend and thank you for reading... xo

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